WHEWW! What a whirlwind of emotions. This year has been full of uncertainty, obstacles, and left turns. In the last four months, I’ve bounced around from house to house and have moved several times. I knew Uranus, the planet of change, uncertainty, and freedom, had moved into my 3rd and 4th house, bringing sudden moves and changes within my community, neighbors, and home life. I would have never expected this many obstacles. As always, I make the best of any situation. Each obstacle has revealed a parallel in my life, which has allowed me to look deeper into what is actually unraveling.
I’ve been staying quiet since I came back from Hōlanikū. I'm making my 6th move next month. I’m officially moving back to O’ahu (for now). The Universe has a funny way of aligning things- not only am I moving back to O’ahu, I’m moving back into the exact building I moved out of, and to top things off, the initial unit I wanted when I first moved into this building. All my favorite neighbors and friends are still here, It’s like I never left. I’ve been staying with my friend who lives in this same building. We used to get flowers or ice cream from our beloved neighbor Tracy because she found so much joy in our laughter. Recently, one of the other neighbors came upstairs at 11 p.m. because of us laughing so loudly. When he saw me, he gave me a huge hug and let me know how much he's missed me. Lin is an elder from China, and this was the first time I’ve ever really seen him show affection. It warmed my heart. He brought us dinner and we all shared a meal together (even though we were stuffed, we couldn’t turn it down). We each had a drink and stayed up late catching up and talking. Lin shared stories from his past, critiqued our art, and talked about the cultural differences between art in China and the United States.
The entire experience felt like the beginning of a new chapter. Of course, all this is unraveling during the time of an eclipse. For those that don’t know, an eclipse closes old doors, brings in new chapters, and opens a 6-month portal for change. Funny enough, my lease was initially for 6 months, though I’m not ready to make another move that fast, so I extended it.
In my last blog, I discussed the possibilities of traveling, and as much as I want to make another trip and live that spontaneous side of myself, I’m going to be building my brand on O’ahu. I recently got into one of the markets and I’m so excited to share my art and merchandise with the collective. Before I left for Hōlanikū, I was told I could not do my podcast or make any monetary value off of my merch online or at any shops. Essentially, I felt that I was asked to be silenced, by keeping my political beliefs private. I interpret Hōlanikū not working out as a sign that my voice, and art were never meant to be silenced or paused. I feel like I'm getting a second shot to really dive into my dreams and passions and turn them into my reality.
I’ve been in constant creation, from releasing new art prints, tote bags, stickers, to new designs and collaborations. My work is now being sold at the Locavore shop in downtown Hilo, and I’m working hard to grow my brand on O’ahu. I recently started a petition after coming back from Hōlanikū to protect Papahānaumokuākea from Elon Musk's rocket debris. Papahānaumokuākea is the sacred waters I was fortunate to sail through when traveling through Hōlanikū. These petitions are posted at the Patagonia stores on O’ahu and I've released art prints and stickers to bring awareness of this issue, and with a QR code attached, to grow the amount of signatures and push for an Environmental Impact Statement (EIS). If you haven't done so already, please sign the petition listed under the gallery tab.
I always tend to take too much on and sometimes can get lost in the work of it all. With that being said, I really want to go back to making podcast videos, and will re-visit that once I'm all settled and moved in. October 1st is looking like the beginning of my next chapter, cheers to 31, the human experience is full of curve balls. Thank you for your patience and for all the support.
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